Truly on a Mission

I had to make a very selfish decision today. I chose to stay the course with this months' round instead of being with my family in a very difficult time. It broke my heart that I won't be there to hold my mom's hand while she deals with her two sisters' illnesses. But, after weighing the pro's and con's it came down to this...I am desperate to have a child and I know that it could take quite a while. So, I just wasn't willing to break free for a couple of days to do the road trip to family. Still, even though I'm at peace with the decision, I feel very guilty like I'm letting people I love down.